how much I want a child.
Now, before you go getting all freaked out, of course in real life I am not looking to just be handed a baby at this moment. I have a lot of stuff, internally and externally, to work on before I'm ready. But there is this part of me, and I don't know if it's biological or chemical or whatever, but this fairly large part that every time I see, say, onesie cupcakes!!!! or adorable pudgy drooling babies on the subway or tiny, tiny Crocs, makes me forget all about the rational reasons now's not a good time for a child and just simply melt.